Still staying positive even after that!

I was totally in the focus zone a few weeks ago, on top of my game and ready to go! Then I sprained my ankle and I will admit I used it as an excuse! Then I realized what I was doing and tried everything I could to make it better only to find out my healing techniques were making it worse:( Now for the past couple of days I have made myself get out and try walking on it, it started feeling even better! So the night before our weigh in I did some circuit training exercises and was very positive! Then the weigh in:( WHAT!!!!! I gained 3 pounds!! Now I can take this one of two ways! One, I can go back into the :"I feel sorry for my self" stage or I can just move on! I decided to just move on! This 12 week challenge for me is not about winning the $1000 dollars. I have been struggling with my weight for a while now and I have had a hard time getting myself back on track! So the 1 thing I wanted to do during this competition is to get myself back on track (which I believe I did)! Some people might be like "Wow ,she only lost 10 pounds!" or "I would have lost more weight then that!" But have you? Well I can honestly say that without this challenge I would not have lost 10 pounds, but I did! In life we are all going to have ups and downs and we will have the choice to take that easy road or the tough road! I could have taken the easy road this entire time but I didn't (with the exception of my ankle at first)! I am proud of myself for what I have accomplished and I know going forward I now have the confidence to continue with this even after this challenge is done! So thank you to Kiss FM for giving me this opportunity! It has been fun and I have learned a lot!

Wedding ring!

I tried on the wedding ring today, doesn't fit yet:( I think maybe if I can lose about 10 more pounds then I could probably wear it. I got so upset with my husband that I didn't have a womens diamond wedding ring. Then when I lost all my weight the first time he finally got me the ring of my dreams! Now I haven't been able to wear for almost 3 years! I have to get that ring back on my finger!!!

Thank you Mr. Police Officer!

So I rode my bike to work on Sunday, what a great feeling:) That has to be my favorite thing about summer is pulling out my bike and going for a ride! Well while I was riding home, a police officer pulled in the driveway in front of me. I was confused thinking I was going to get in trouble for forgetting to turn on my light. he asked me my name then he asked me my age, comes up close to me and says "Nevermind, we are looking for a runaway." LOL I wish I was under 18 again (well somedays. I rode the rest of the way home with a smile on my face:) I think on Thursday i will ride my bike to Planet Fitness for the weigh in:) I'm very excited!

My mind is making me fat!

I came to the conclusion that my mind is making me fat! It makes me feel like I can't get past my 260 mark!!! Every time I get close to it I set my self up for disaster. My mind says "You've been trying for so long to get past this mark, but it's not going to happen!" and then it says "Why are you even going to try?" I need to get my mind out of this thought pattern and get going or else I will be stuck here FOREVER!!! Spark people has helped me a lot, alone with writing in a journal. I write what I eat and what I am feeling. It can be anything sometimes I write the most random things:) I always try to stay positive when I write in it and find something that day that I did that was good, even if it was just something small. Last week when I got close to that 260 mark I set myself up and so I decided that I can't give up and I need to continue with my journal writing's! This week has been super hard because my husband is gone on a work trip and it's just me and the kids. I am finding it hard to get to the gym and I;m driving myself crazy in the house!!! We will see how tomorrows weigh in goes!

My mind is making me fat!

Best week so far...

This week I lost 4.4 pounds:) It wasn't enough to win the I Pod, but it was good enough for me!! I worked really hard this week and I have no regrets. I wrote down what I ate. I realized I don't need 3 or 4 things for lunch. I can have 1 thing to eat and a snack later if I'm hungry. I don't need to be greedy about my my food. If I have a sub I don't need the chips to go with it just because I like the way they taste. I have been drinking enough water everyday instead of soda. I limit the diet soda to 1 or 2 a day. I even started running on the treadmill and I even made it for 21 minutes yesturday. I am sooo proud of myself! My mind is exactly where it needs to be! I am ready to start this new week already! Congrats to Dan on the I Pod. Great job to everyone else! I'll see you next Thursday!

COFFEE DAY :)

So right before I was accepted into this challenge, I realized I have a coffee problem! For the past 3 years I was spending probably about $200 dollars a month, just on that. Then I also realized that ever since I started drinking my morning cup of amazingness, I started gaining my weight back too. I think that this addiction lead me to gain back the 95pounds I once lost. Looks like that morning cup of amazingness really isn't that amazing for me. Anyways I made myself be strong and get rid of my addiction only allowing myself to have a cup on Monday mornings! There have been a few weeks where I didn't think I was going to make it until Monday but I did. This morning as I was getting ready for work I realized that I almost forgot about it:) Looks like I have finally been able to kick a bad habit! I am very proud of myself:)

PS For anyone out there that is struggling with losing weight and is getting a skinny latte every morning. They have about 300 calories not the 15o I estimated! break the habit I did!